Hey everyone! I put together an inPRNT shop with a handful of work— if you’ve been wanting quality prints from me for a while, now’s your chance (plus they have a $10 worldwide shipping special going on this weekend!). I’m hoping to create more work to put up before the holidays up so I’ll let you know!
This is the first purely personal piece of artwork I’ve made in a long time, and with it I’m going to break away from the norms here and share something. After spending time with dearfriends yesterday and talking about process and struggles, I felt compelled to make something and talk about something I usually hide away.
The fact is, for over a decade I’ve been fighting with anxiety and depression. I feel very weird writing this here— it seems like in the online world it’s something we’re supposed to tuck away. It might not be professional, or it could come off as complaining or bleak. But I do not mean this to be, dear readers. I know that we are products of our experiences and the tough critic I am has made me a stronger tougher illustrator. But it is something that has been a struggle, knocked me down and left me feeling lost and isolated. When my work failed or floundered, it became a reflection of myself. Coupled with a mean perfectionistic streak, it’s lately made me question my personal practice to the point that working on anything for myself felt like a waste of time and effort. Doubly strange and hard when I see my students struggle, leap and grow in school, but feeling paralyzed myself.
I still feel very weird writing this. But I feel like it’s important to take a risk and be honest about this part of me to evolve beyond it, and also share with those who work and struggle and feel alone. After all, process isn’t just the pretty sketches but it’s also the rough scribbles.
I write this with a positive note; after finally getting sick of this pattern I am taking strides to fight these issues at their core and separate my well-being from my work, and for the first time in a while I’m starting to feel good (knock on wood). It’s still a long road yet, and I know it’s something I might fight my whole life, but that’s the benefit of art-making— when we can actually get deep within the work, we can learn new things and get lost (and found) at the same time.
Thank you for following me and reading this; even though I may not know you all it makes me happy that I can share with you and fight the good fight. Hopefully there will be a lot more art to share soon—till the next.
Dear friends: I know I promised a new project soon, and I am super-disappointed to say I’m having to put it on hold for a bit. I’m going through some things right now which are creatively very frustrating, and juggling freelance, life, teaching and creative fulfillment is not working as well as I’d hoped. It feels like failure, but I must be kinder to myself and just work through it. I’ll explain more soon— I want to be more honest about my practice, beyond just showing the work. Reading blogs like Lisa Congdon’s have really inspired me that way.
For now, I’m getting ready to teach new students (semester begins next week! Crazy) and tomorrow I fly to Minneapolis to see good friends and learn from Victoria Ying and Mike Yamada, two creatives who I’m so in awe of. Hopefully that inspiration will re-energize me!
Some snippets of things I’m working on right now. All will be revealed in 2013! Let’s just say though it’s been fun to try and work on some pieces with simpler palettes and a little less texture and a little bit of offset, more akin to my screenprints. I want to try and flex my creative muscles next year and really experiment…
Back in early summer, my sister and I got invited to do a storyboard test for Adventure Time. She wrote and I drew it, and I must admit it was really fun and a great learning experience! We got some positive responses on it and then I forgot all about it til the other day, so I thought I’d share it with you.
The PDF is up here; hope you enjoy! Storyboarding is tough stuff— I’ve got deep respect and admiration for all my storyboarding peers now!